and the award to biggest disappointment of the year goes to...

dear. mr. fiasco (if thats even your real name),

you have been one of my favorite artists since the days that i attempted to kick, push. i have been nothing but loyal since then. for you to put out LASERS as it has leaked right now, is big wad of spit in my face. in the faces of all the fans. it is not the lupe, i fell in love with. i thought i was your sunshine. fuck, LASERS is not even the type of record i can even say i barely like. i had to do the double take as i heard the trey songs track. is this really lupe fiasco? or is this some drake or justin bieber wannabe? seriously. the only way i can bare to listen to LASERS now is if i hit shuffle on my entire lupe playlist and forget, it ever existed as its own entity. i have stayed on top of all the tracks that leaked early through online magazines, twitter and facebook and i was impressed. i kept telling myself this is no doubt the most anticipated album of the year (sorry, dre). i regret to admit that listening to it as a whole was the most mind numbing pain ive been put through since my last dentist visit. radio single after radio single is NOT an album, its a cheap excuse into making more money. i dont give a fuck as to what the label allowed you to put out, how could you put your name on something you didnt believe in?! i cant bring myself to say that you sold out on the fans, but just know a little bit of respect has been lost. talk about DUMBING IT DOWN smfh

i was consumed with excitement as i waited in the frigid, February weather to see you perform in williamsburg, nyc. this would be the 3rd time seeing you live and your stage presence has been and still is uncanny. i get lost with you. i thought LASERS would have that same effect on me. ive been sadly mistaken. until next time, right? i'll be awaiting what you have in store for THE GREAT AMERICAN RAP ALBUM.

pardon the horrible video quality. i was in the midst of maddness.

the girl who allowed hip-hop to save her life

love always shines. everytime. remember to smile. ::sigh::

-janice

union maddness

ive been sentenced to bed rest for the past couple of days (infected with the sickness! ...strep throat and a fever). missed 2 days of class and 1 day of work (ugh!) i hate falling behind especially on here. whats worth mentioning, in the life and times of beans? lets see. last week, mr lupe fiasco had tweeted all his followers of a surprise in store for anyone showing up at union square, new york. i, among a couple other thousand fans went running! i was expecting a batman-like signal in the sky and while it wasnt the greatest of all surprises, i'll be the first to admit, the over all energy was awesome! traffic was stopped as lupe had his LASERS logo projected onto the side of a nearby building. lupe clearly let the city know the anticipation of LAZERS is not to go underlooked!

a small snapshot of what caused union madness:

i came across the LASERS tracklist. a lot of MDMA hmmmm ...enjoy:

01. Letting Go (Feat. Sarah Green)
02. Words I Never Said (Feat. Skylar Grey)
03. Till I Get There
04. I Don’t Wanna Care Right Now (Feat. MDMA)
05. Out Of My Head (Feat. Trey Songz)
06. The Show Goes On
07. Beautiful Lasers, (Two Ways) (Feat. MDMA)
08. Coming up (Feat. MDMA)
09. State Run Radio (Feat. Matt Mahaffey)
10. Break The Chain (Feat. Eric Turner & Sway)
11. All Black Everything
12. Never Forget You (Feat. John Legend)

currently smell like- vapor rub

currently taste like- thera-flu

-beans

just a quickie

busy schedule of work and class today. yes, the spring semester is upon us! im currently enrolled in 2 classes: THERAPEUTIC INTERVENTIONS IN CHEMICAL DEPENDENCY and GROUP DYNAMICS IN CHEMICAL DEPENDENCY. a mouth full to say the least but im hella excited! my kickboxing class begins tomorrow. positivity consumes me.

counting down the days to LASERS! i swear its not just a long awaited album. its a movement! without further adue and for your listening pleasure...

LOVE. ALWAYS. SHINES. EVERYTIME. REMEMBER to SMILE.

@j_rooks31 follow me for a swell time!

HIP-HOP ONLY DESTROY? ::laughs:: TELL 'EM LOOK AT ME, BOY!

MY show goes on

2010 changed me. him leaving me to rest in peace affects me every single day. some days are more difficult than others. some days destroy me and leave me with little will power to do anything really. other days motivate me to be everything he was or IS in our lives. to be more than just a daughter or more than just a sister within my family. 2010. literally, a year of heartache. ive lost more than i could ever describe, but in that loss, hope found me. love found me. LIFE found me.

my soul has been overcome with optimism for 2011. if all goes according to plan (which it never does, but i embrace spontaneity so fuck it) ...i'll be registering for classes in February. theres a substance abuse counseling license that john jay offers after completing the BA program, but before having to do the master's program. my little brown-beaned eyes are on it. im only a couple of credits away to obtaining the license since the majority of the classes i took for my BA fall into the same criteria. shouldnt be too difficult. the main squeeze and i are planning a trip to spain some time in the early summer hopefully. it will become our soccer hiatus (ironcally, currently watching the valencia 1/espanyol 1 game) and lastly which is of most importance to me is hooking up my attic apartment. its been an long overdue project. ive painted so i really need to put my little interior decorating skills to work and furnish my love pad :)

i thought this was very appropriate for the overall vibe of this post:

enjoy!

-beans

japanese cartoon

im currently listening to an assortment of music, but as always i have favorites that get a little more of my replay love. today's topic of choice? japanese cartoon. finally an image to put with the music. for a long time lupe fiasco has denied any and all affiliation with japanese cartoon. im glad he's come out the closet. how i feel about british accent is another story. well, actually thats a lie. im not crazy about it at all, to be honest. its different which i can appreciate. im trying to be as optimistic as i can be and let it slowly grow on me but everything else about this song and video is dope. im definitely keeping an eye out for japanese cartoon and will post anything i come across.

indulge yourself...

COUNTING DOWN TO MARCH 8TH 2011....

which is when the much anticipated LASERS drops. with john legend?! are you serious right now?! WOW. i'm fuckin hungry and mr lupe fiasco is the only one able to quench the listening hunger my ears crave right now. just when you think hip hop is lost, you hear a track like this: respectable lyrical content and mainstream appeal. thats what its all about in my book. and please, PLEASE no one even mention the stomach churning nonsense nikki BLAHnaj is about to release. ive heard way too much ranting and raving over her as if she the prophesied messiah to hip hop . tell me where she is in 10 years from now. real music withstands time. tell me, you cant listen to 36 chambers or capital punishment time after time and not fall in love with them time and time again. i dont think ive ever witnessed so much hype for something so completely overrated and so simply put WACK. shes bad, i give her that and that alone lol ahhhhh! ok, ok, ok, now on to the purpose of this post....for your listening enjoyment....

lupe fiasco ft john legend- never forget you

-beans con arroz

-the coolest nigga, WHAT?!

Today, nobody cares
But tomorrow they will, they will
Today, nobody cares
But, oh, tomorrow they will, they will

They said my future was dark
You see me now?
Just look around
I’m beamin'

(We are) They used to talk
When I wasn’t around (Lasers)
You see me now (We’re not)
(Losers) I’m beamin’

I get my energy from my inner G
I be in outer space, but I got inner peace
So tell my enemies that they can’t injure me
I know that irritates, you have my sympathies
Well, you should protest, yeah, you should picket me
I’m on a losing strike, I’m on a winning streak
I’m out in left field, I’m speaking mentally
But that’s a better places than where the benches be
I’m feelin’ really good, me and different beat
Me and my different drummer, he play the timpanis
See, that’s what got me here, you hearin’ me
Me on my black man in the future shit, call me Billy Dee
See, I’m just forward-looking, that’s how I really see
See, while you Valentimes, I’m thinking Christmas trees
And that’s how this would be, even at Mickey D’s
Semicolon, close parentheses

Do you remember me, the guy from verse one?
Failure’s my last name, Never’s my first one
You see I hood a lot, and yeah I nerd some
Hood’s where the heart is, nerd’s where the words from
Don’t represent either, because I merged them
‘S kids who wanna leave, and I encourage them
Go out and see the world, never return from
Yeah, you don’t come back, unless you learn some
And baby girl, what does it matter where your purse from?
Your hurr done, your nails did, your ass fat, but you’re dumb
Mix Melyssa Ford with Maya Angelou
Become a top model and Sojourner too
I try to follow this, what Muhammad do
It’s such a old soul inside the sonic youth
Swear I’m Ferrari’d up, and I’m conscious, too
I don’t prophesize: I promise you

Yeah, it’s me again, the guy from verse two
Well, this the last one, it’s almost curfew
It’s almost night out, so turn your lights on
Where all my 760s, witcha brights on?
Yeah, they are the ones to keep your eyes on
Like how we used to do, to keep the house warm
Now those the type of eyes, I not cry from
You see the tears of fire run out my cryin’ songs
Now the world’s shoulders is what we cryin’ on
The world’s fast lane is what I’m drivin’ on
What am I driving at? I’m tryna drive it home
I’m in the driver’s seat, but you can ride along
‘Cause never cyclops, it’s never I alone
I’m tellin’ your story wherever I perform
Now if they lookin’ for me, tell ‘em I’ve gone
Out in the bright lights, right where I belong

amor por haiti

Lupe Fiasco - New Music - More Music Videos

forget the crush.

lupe, you are my "cant eat, cant sleep, reach for the stars, world series" tipo de amor.

substance(s) in the place of popularity

welcome. this is enemy of the state. its a love story.

because i feel my fans really have love for me ;) ;) ;)

chukka lows? good god! forget the gum. its tasteless in comparison. its all about simplicity and that sole red pinstripe does it for me.

magic

...is left speechless once again. you think youre a fan or you think you know the power and magic that your favorite artists' music impacts on you and your life, BUT (as corny as it may sound) i had no idea until i saw mr.lupe fiasco live at governor's island on September 19th. performance of 'daydreaming' ?! wow. i was left speechless. food & liquor contending to be added to one of the books of the bible? ...he's definitely preachin the truth, why not?

currently listening to: kid cudi's man on the moon

if you havent already, you're slackin