life without you both has no means ::sigh::

-tu hermanita, janice

WHAT?!?!?!?!

JAY-Z signed JAY ELECTRONICA to the ROC?! wow. finally something to be excited about. jay elec's lyrical brilliance and jay'z genius marketing= match made in hip hip heaven lol ...looking forward to the revival of music in 2011.

hov's introduction:

the king of new orleans inauguration:

currently: listening to my latest mixtape download, friday night lights (on saturday lol) courtesy of datpiff.com as i watch my king play pro-evolution soccer on ps3. watched some ecuadorian soccer earlier (emelec 2 - manta-1) and now just waiting until laziness escapes me and i get my lazy lard ass up to throw on a fashionably effortless ensemble for date night. im craving a BLACK FLOWER from a cheaply advertised mexican restaurant only known to NewYorkians as Blockheads. its a delicious sangria and frozen margarita mix sent straight from the gods as a weekend getaway after a stressful workweek. possibly catching a horribly overpriced friday release movie after. skyline, maybe? catch me if you can. and when i say can, i mean RUN! because i'll be flying to the highs of the moon and the stars tonight with EL ZAR ;)

-beans

"and we could meet on the other side"

so im definitely not down with this newly categorize genre often referred to as "emo-rap," but the legend of mr.rager takes me away. high away. shall you join me?

kid cudi ft cee-lo green- scott mescudi vs the world

-lightin up.

...what keeps the lonely nights sleepless

this was the answers to my little fat girl prayers. the gods have not forsaken me! MCRIB IS BACK!

you know what it is "negro y amarillo" lol

"el reloj nixon" she will be mine. hitting up blades 72nd&bway thursPAYday!

the loves:

-beans

trick or treat?

-respectfully yours,

littlegirlorange

every man's nightmare

guys, check it out, but cry not. no, the world is not coming to an end, but might as well be with the invention of this shit. say good-bye to the office-slut. good god, i'm gonna miss her making a fool out of herself too lol

...you just gotta love late night informercials.

-beans

"MAMA AINT RAISE NO FOOL. SHE ONLY RAISED HALF A FOOL" -CUDDER

nanito

yesterday was a very eventful day. it consisted of tears. a lot of sad ones but a drop or two of happy ones as well. it was the FDNY's memorial service for those members whom rest in peace as of 2010. once again, i am left baffled as to the amount of respect and essentially love that this brotherhood has shown me and the rest of hearts that still ache from the loss. gusy, i know you were with me yesterday. how to honor your life better than how it was done yesterday, i do not know how to do. i know youre proud. i love you and miss you more than anyone will ever know.

good GOD, send OUR hearts peace. amen.

currently listening to....

"I'm so mistaken. Lost my direction. My souls been shaken. Every way I wonder if I'M wrong." ::sigh::

the beans are rotten today. try a side of potatoes or something.

"I REVEALED TOO MUCH, TOO SOON. I WAS EMOTIONALLY SLUTTY"

"she gets it from her momma!"

about a week ago i had shared with my mom that i was planning to march and protest against a record company that didnt want to put out one of my favorite artist's music later this month (FNF UP! FRIDAY OCTOBER, 15TH AT 11:30AM @ 59TH AND 5TH). she replied "tenias que ser mi hija" and continued to tell me how she was going to protest along with 50,000 other hardcore-ass americans from her union, 1199 for healthcare benefits, job opportunities, etc for the working, middle class in Washington D.C. the next day. what did that mean for me? ROADTRIP! causing havoc where the republicans sleep!

for your viewing pleasure:

http://www.fiascofriday.com/ BE THERE!

what the daughter does, the mother did ;)

-beans

slave to the bank?

so it's been 4 months since i graduated with my BA from John Jay and still i remain jobless. with everything my family and i have gone through these past couple of months, starting my career or studying for the GRE to enter a master's program has honestly become less important to me. it used to be such a priority and now ....to inhale* soggy cereal in bed as i watch TBS re-runs of the office at 5pm day after day has been heavenly. slave to the bank, i am not, but my checking account reads $0.22 ::shrieks of horror:: and so the SERIOUS job hunt is about to commence. i have an over the phone interview today with one of the directors of Harlem's Children Zone for the intake coordinator position. luck is for pansies so dont wish me any, but prayers are encouraged and well received.

and for a little inspiration:

::clicks replay:: oh asher, you sexy little white boy, you!

"happiness isnt about getting what you want all the time. its about loving what you have, so get ready, ITS A NEW DAY"

-baked beans. get it? ;)

jury fucking duty

"i have been given the gift of time" its day 2 of my juror responsibilities and needless to say, i am balding! i have been pulling my hair out with the overwhelming amount of boredom i have been consumed with. 2 hours here seem like 4 and 4 seem like an eternity. before i start to beautifully ramble on about nothing-ness, lets catch up!

food caught in my teeth: 6 day old, home baked chocolate-banana cake

currently listening to:

CHERRY BOMB -the runaways

THE WAR -wale

BEAUTY SCHOOL -deftones

bean-like stench: men's degree shower fresh deodorant ;)

"oldie but goodie" of the day:

"negra! stop calling me black, you chubby boy!" hermanito, como te extrano. spit and all.

last cinema production that BLEW me away: i love you, phillip morris (Jim Carrey at his best!)

currently missing: summer 2010. i literally died and came back to life. and he's the one to blame :)

my well kept secret:

"i just want to be at peace with you. and if i gotta settle for a piece of you? then i gotta say peace to you."

-beans

apologizing for my recent hiatus

how do i begin to live again when its my life that feels at its ends? ::sighs:: its been the roughest couple of months i have ever had to go through in my entire life. and after running and running [away], the soles of my soul are exhausted. im torn. im changed. i have encountered loss and have encountered love. i've found solace. and as unhealthy as it may appear to be. it is my solace. stay tuned for act III scene IV and as always judge me not.

it's getting late, real early around here so...........

bring on the posts, beans!

what are you listening to, janice?!

"laugh now. fly later"

-beans LOVES all her taylors ;)