Me lo ha dicho el viento #np

Follow those size 5s

Come away with me for a moment as I let you enter my cave and introduce you to a couple of lovelies in my life right now...

"After winter must come spring. I fucks with things that change gradually. Let me tell you, everything is everything."

#np

On repeat.

Bozo,

I can't wait to get away from you
And surprisingly you hate me too
We only communicate when we need to fight
But we are best friends...right?

You're too good at pretending you don't care
There's enough resentment in the air
Now you don't want me in the flat
When you’re home at night
But we're best friends right?

You know what all my faces mean
And it's easy to smoke it up, forget
Everything that happened in between

Melgo’s right when she says I can't win (ha!)
So I don't wanna tell you anything
I can't even think about
How you feel inside
But we are best friends, right?

I don't like the way you say my name
You're always looking for someone to blame
Now you want me to suffer just cause
You was born wide
But we are best friends right?

I had love for you since I was 17
And there's no one I wanna smoke with more
Someday I'll buy the Rizla, so you get the dro
Cause we are best friends right, right, right, right?

-A. Winehouse

::prays::

You were a dumbass for quitting on us. I miss you, gusy.

-negra

Bet you didnt know...

... that I cry myself to sleep every night, my attempts to fill this void have gone unsuccessful. Crust filled eyes every morning have become all too real to me. I believe I've written these exact words before and yet hours, days, weeks, months and years have gone by and the pain is all the same.

Day comes to an end and so does my optimism. A very wise friend told me, I've neglected my own well-being. I used to take so good care of myself (even in the midst of madness, even during my lowest of lows, i always mattered. I was always first and now? I look in the mirror and I don't know me anymore. I've lost a little of myself in trying to find something I don't even know how to spell. Thee irony.

The only solace I have are my kiddies. I'm completely head over heels, ball over the fence on game 4 of the world series in LOVE with my job. How can my personal life be such a mess and yet my professional life be at an all time high all at the same time??? DREAM is my escape. I arrive at 7am and become wonder woman ...without the boots, of course. It's a beautiful feeling to be a part of something so positive. And the kiddies? Not a day goes by where they don't make me laugh and cry all at the same time. I thank the gods everyday for this blessing.

I'm a fighter. No doubt about that. My mom says I'm a spitting image of her and I believe it. This is where blogspot comes into play. This was my favorite outlet and it has gone completely ignored, shunned and forgotten about. Those little fuckers at Apple tricked me into getting a new toy lol ...this shall be my motivation for more updates. The best of beans has yet to be put on paper.

I repeat: THE BEANS ARE NOT OVERCOOKED!

Stay tuned, loves

#np

My Little Fish

My fish swims, swims, swims;

I love my little fish.

I wish I can be a fish,

Just like my little swimming fish.

-Mell Northia, age 6

(little sister to Janice Beans Northia)

i need to get away from here...

and end up there!

and movie of the year goes to...

DRIVE.

the illest scene of the movie:

i need to get my hands on the complete soundtrack. so badass:

A+, in the bean book of reviews

"if theres a heaven, i cant find the stairway"

a hibernation session is long overdue for beans. i need to find myself again. the only way to do that is to hide. hide with myself, that is. ive been letting all the wrong ppl get the best of me. it ends now. anxiety is at a all time high and unfortunately love is at an all time low. its going to be a rough winter, folks. stay warm.

for your listening endeavors:

the roots ft big k.r.i.t -make my...

i have it on repeat as i work on a couple of projects i have up my sleeves. soon to be discussed. stay tuned.

The Roots "Make My" featuring Big K.R.I.T. by okayplayer

-oh and for the thieves of my sanity, eat beef!

#np

no need to even bring up the question of "whats the beans review for coleworld?" you know what my response is...enjoy!

roar !

-blunted beans

tell 'em where you from...

the inspiration for my latest endeavor:

...and then ofcourse, my interpretation:

currently listening to sak noel's loca people ;)

currently smell like the puppies, athena & blue

currently craving a glass of destruction

currently excited for the 21st bday !!!

ill

"I'll break your heart
To keep you far from where
All dangers start" -amor

ooops!

without anytime to actually post, i leave you fellow bloggsters with this:

these broads are so badass. i need to get my act together and start a band and take up a serious drug problem.

"peace to the gods and the earths"

-beany :)

yoga to the janice!

ahhhh! the life of beans is a simple one. the complexity of my schedule is whats gets me though. i catch myself apologizing for my leaves of absence on flavorless beans all too often so instead of going through the ordeal of bullcrap excuses, lets just catch up!

i have recently undergone some sort of enlightenment of the mind that i, myself am still unsure how to explain. my heart aches. the type of ache that i thought could never be healed. as days, weeks and months pass, i realize how much more i need and miss....................................him with me. i've consumed my daily life with activities to keep me busy. from school to work to the gym, i have been able to keep my mind off this never ending ache. i have come to realize that instead of filling my schedule with empty activities to run away from this pain, i need to come to terms with it (with myself, really).

a friend of mine (my favorite mexican, miss nere, ofcourse) invited me a couple of months back to a yoga class with her. and since ive been attempting to drop a pound or two or 12, i went in the hopes it would help me lose weight. what i took away became much more than inches off my waist. my breathing and the connection between my body and mind has been strengthen and has resulted in a more peaceful beans. the ache is there and will forever be a part of me, but i feel closer to him and in return have become one with myself again which relieves some of the pain associated with him leaving me.

it helps that the place ive been going to is AMAZING. the name of the practice is power vinyasa at a chain of studios named YOGA TO THE PEOPLE. it is a donation based teaching with locations in the east village area, midtown and now brooklyn! the vibe is so relaxed and the teachers are phenomenal. i definitely recommend it to anyone whether you need a great workout or in for a mentally soothing experience. check out the link for more info!

www.yogatothepeople.com

all bodies rise!

earth day 2011

disney presents: AFRICAN CATS! only playing one day april 22nd?! AND a donation will be made to protect the savanna and its inhabitants?! the question is ...where do i preorder my tickets? if you know me, you know the affinity i have for the wild. this is definitely my "type" of flick. excited is an understatement.

"in an untamed land, every mother has one mission: PROTECT HER FAMILY"

-beans